The In Between: How I Began To Discover My Flow

I went back to the "random jobs" (cafe work, cleaning, dog walking). It was the first time in a long time that I wasn't earning money to afford my regular luxuries: brunches out every weekend, going for massages, buying really nice, thoughtful gifts (sorry mum).

But I was so goddamn relieved. I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I finally felt a sense of freedom. I was able to have phone-free days. DAYS!

I spent a lot of time community building. Attending random events and experiences (mostly solo) to connect with others. Focusing on my health and wellness more than I ever have. I felt called to practise more yoga, breathwork and I started journaling. I leant more into my spirituality. I knew deep down that there was more to life than what I had been doing for work for the last almost 10 years.

I started to get really curious about myself again. Not so much in a "what should I be doing with my life" panic kind of way (maybe a little bit at the beginning). But more like... who am I, actually? What do I care about? What lights me up? When does my energy feel good?

I started reassessing my values properly. Not what I thought I should value, or what looked good from the outside. What actually mattered to me, in my body, when I got quiet enough to hear it.

Community. Creativity. Authenticity. Adventure. Knowledge. Curiosity. Helping others. Connection. Love. Growth. The list kept growing and none of it surprised me. I think I'd always known. I just hadn't been living in alignment with any of it.

The more I sat with these values, the more a feeling I was having started to take shape.

This quiet but persistent pull toward wanting to create something. Not another business built on the hustle and grind. Something that actually meant something. Something that gave other people what I had found in those moments of stillness. In the yoga classes, the breathwork. The aspects of joy, play and genuine human connection from the random events I'd wandered into alone. Feelings of calm and quiet I have when being out in nature.

I wanted to create a space where people could come back to themselves. To return to their own rhythm. The very rhythm that gets drowned out by the noise of everyday life.

These feelings did not go away.

If anything, they got louder.